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the slit of light hitting the dust
the thing that you preserve 
is not the real thing, but the representation



the same questions (re)turn to you 
over and over and over again. 
different iterations, same patterns.

this is, in part, a question of weight.                 
(film deteriorates.)

***


you teach me about time: 
how things cycle, live, die.     
(what remains?)

this is, in part, a question of wait. 



***



THE DISINTEGRATION OF THINGS 
begins in darkness. you. 
light a stick of incense. quietly

***




INHALE 
we know each other from before. 
circling. 

we come back for each other, 
into each other, 
re/turning, inseparable




***



shadows
elongate with time
stretching fleeting bodies 
into thick air






SHOT LIST I
tides 
salt mines 
fish bones 
fog 
molting 
mycelial night




SHOT LIST III
birds
of prey 

birds
breathing

tides
in and out 

birds 
bones
sky



***




YOUR BODY
is earth touching hand,
touching water
touching fire,
touching air


FILM
is chemical 
touching light, 
touching fluid, 
touching time


MUTATIONS 
film has a body 
that is chemically altered 
(kind of like us)


BOTH AND 
whether you're 
watching the film 
or making the film, 
your body is (in) it


SHOT LIST II
you,
turning over the soil 
with your hands 

you,
holding water 

you, 
a night ocean, 
a forest, 
a corner, 
a cave

you, 
a verdant blur

(and yet)










EXHALE


a jagged fluid leaking 
into the corner of time
or was it leaking at all

was it osmosis; 
do you remember where you are going 

(( there is a sense that guides you ))

you open the parentheses 
and we wait, crouched

( how do you feel without your head )

***

let it pour out of you 
into vastness, into expanse

soft blue shadow

see it: 
slow revolutions,
standing, barefoot, 
black, slip.

low ground. 
tracing the grief through organs,
root to tip. undulating.
being born, emerging
from darkness



i felt you in the slit of light hitting the dust